Wine and Cheese

Dec. 27. 2009
Dear George.

I agree, i dont know if i'm following the star in the inmensity or the coincidences of the road, sometimes i feel im being attacked from the tv, in the street or in the old memories.
Traveling is always wonderful but also a punishment, it makes me grow and it twists me, i miss you, i miss dealing my issues with someone that knows who i am completely, thats the difference between you and the people of the road, you don't judge me because you know the different Mary's i am, maybe even the future ones, maybe?

As i travel, you realize how everything has changed, how the past is only memories, i carry you in some of my days in the trip through italy, i think in "up, downs, but mostly in betweens... and of course, the pasta! "
Its like that, i see grays and yellows here, i wont lie is better than i though it was going to be, not that here is my place, i don't know yet, the adaptation in this place is totally different that the other cities i have been so far, well actually all my trip have been a kind of mini crossing.
But the downs, they feel really turbulents and the in betweens give me the warmth and tranquility that i need to keep carrying this mental luggage around the different places i go.

Tomorrow a new week beggins, that means the time left is little, im not saying im ready to go back home but i also don't feel staying away is being vital at the moment, i don't see the minute when i start the final part of the longest road that have meant the university, i keep thinking that i'm almost there at the same time i dream in finding my muse in someone in the road, but that is a lie... the muse is only driven by how much i want to live things, of keep enjoying the road as you have said it before, obviously we are not having a baby anytime soon, thats for sure :D haha even though one of this days i will make fun of that guy.

I have been trying to clean my brain and leave this person as just a sailor i met, looking at the people in italy, i have so much to say but i feel that i don't want to hammer you with all of this at once, i only know that your mail made me extremely happy and to feel that always your emails inspire me to write maybe the best lines of my stories of the road.

When we will see each other again? only god knows, i only know that i keep you in my memories.

Lots of hugs and i hope your good vibe and cheers be the ones who stay there in the sky, so they stay with you too.

M.Gainza